I was trying to figure out the best way to approach this post for the past few days now. I started this Whole30 program as my first official diet two weeks ago. I did it to be able to say to my fellow readers that, “Hey, if I can do it, you can do it too!” There wasn’t much other motive for me other than to cut out the massive amount of sugar in my diet that I had been use to eating for so long in hopes that would help my focus a little better.
I could have done this two ways… I could have said “Yeah! Everything is awesome and this is so easy!” or I could have been honest. I am going to be honest and transparent because I cannot be the person that sits in front of you lying through my teeth.
*If you know Harry Potter, it reminds me of that scene where he’s sitting at the desk with the quil (and no ink) and starts to write.. “I must not tell lies, I must not tell lies”. Sorry just had to geek out there for a minute*
So here goes nothing…
Day 8 is when it all started to wear me down. I started having dreams about sweets (doughnuts, Oreos, PB&J sandwiches), the whole bit! I was literally waking up between 10-20 times per night, as you can see that doesn’t make for a well rested lady the next day.
I continued to make my meals and eat healthy for the next few days. But after three days of not sleeping well, I was aggitated and completely exhausted. Which is weird because when I first started this, the diet alone increased my energy and I felt more alert than normal.
By day 10 I was dry heaving with every meal and wasn’t getting enough nutrients in. I would make something and eat less than half and to be honest I should have been eating more than what was on my plate.
By day 12 I actually threw up…
I use to like Avocados and would eat them a few times a week, but when you have to choke down Avocados every single day it gets boring. I also cannot look at another egg or piece of bacon for at least a few months to get my mind right. There’s just way too many other better things I can be eating and I dont’ think it’s just Avocados, tuna, bacon, and eggs.
and this is where I threw the towel in
I am not sick, have no fever, no stomach bug, and it didn’t come out the other end (sorry for the TMI). But I’ve had this aversion to food before, if you can remember when I talked about weight loss supplements. I was on a particular type of weight loss medicine and it gave me the shakes and the longer I took it the more I felt like NO food was appetizing and everything made me sick to my stomach before I even ate it. And no, I was not pregnant.
So as much as I would like to say, “Hooray, I did it!”. I don’t have that story to give you today.
I also would see people within the Facebook group of 9,000+ people who were looking for guidance and help or explaining what they ate and if they decided to eat more often than the recommended few times per day, like instead of 2 or 3 bigger meals, they had 4-5 smaller meals, many people would tell them that now their entire “program” was off and they had to restart and it doesn’t count.
A lot of “that’s not compliant” was being thrown around when the ingredients were all “approved”, for me it’s WAY too much restriction for something that is meant to be a healthy option. Moving forward I don’t want to hear, “that’s not compliant” replaying over in my head because I want a snack before lunch time. I just don’t think that’s ideal for a long term big picture, wanting to be helpful to people.
I’m sure I’m not the only one who has failed a diet before and I won’t be the last. I do know that this program does help people who are struggling with various ailments like food allergies/sensitivies, chronic pain & inflammation, among other things. Many people report feeling much better after 10 days and there is even a lady that has been doing the Whole30 for almost a year. I’m just not that person.
I genuinely want a good relationship with food and I don’t want to feel guilty or count calories or points or anything of that sort. I want to know what I’m putting in my body and how it affects me as a person in the long term. I’ve ran from my deamons with food in the past, had periods of binging and purging and all of that in my teen years- thankfully that is ancient history.
If my parents read this, it will be quite upsetting because it’s not something I shared with anyone. But like I said I more than want, I need a good relationship with food. I want to be healthy and be the person who has the energy to chase after her dreams. But obsessing over food to the extent that I have over the past few weeks is not something that I want to do.
So starts my journey into the Paleo lifestyle. I’ll dig into specifics about Paleo in another upcoming post as I don’t want this one to drag on any longer than it has to. I’m not going to be instagramming every meal because that became quite neurotic as I would have to take photos and have my camera at the ready every time I ate. I will post a few times a week on Instagram @Chelseamo07 about the meals I have if you’re interested in knowing more.
I am glad that I did the Whole30 program as it allowed me to clean out my pantry and get rid of all of the boxed items and things that I shouldn’t have had in the first place. It also taught me to try and make the basis of most of my meals with vegetables and to supplement fish in instead of beef all the time. It wasn’t a lost cause, it just wasn’t right for me.
You may hear this a lot throughout your health journey, the diet that is right for one person may not work for you. You just have to listen to your body and do what feels best. It’s not so easy to take your own advice as I have now found out. I just felt like I needed to share the cold hard truth, no matter what light it puts me in.
I do want to clarify that the Whole30 program may be right for one of you reading this, just because I tried it and didn’t have a good experience doesn’t mean it will happen to you. You don’t know until you try.
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